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One thing at a time

There are days, sometimes weeks, when I feel fantastic. Then there are days, sometimes weeks and months when I feel pretty crappy. On the crappy days, my mantra becomes “one thing at a time”. When my depression was really bad, it was the only thing that got me out of bed. Continue reading

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Solitary Beings

I have been spending a lot of time alone in my room lately, but it feels like a good thing. I’ve never really stayed still long enough to consider what is my true nature. Lately, I’ve come to the realisation … Continue reading

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It’s a funny thing…

Energy is a funny thing. I’m not talking about physical energy, I mean emotional energy. Each engagement we have with another person costs us some emotional energy. The trade off is an exchange of energy, hopefully one that will replenish the energy that you give away. There’s more to it than this, too. There’s positive energy, and negative energy. Harm can be done to others by giving off negative vibes that those around you pick up. Negative energy repels, positive energy attracts. Continue reading

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I’m Not Mad

I’ve always struggled with going to sleep early, and I’ve got into a bad habit of staying up late recently. I know it’s partly because my most recent partner was a late night person and we would often not get to sleep until 1 or 2am. This doesn’t help my mental health, however, so I’m going to try and rectify this. As I write this, it is 1:09am, so perhaps I’ll start tomorrow. Continue reading

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High or Low? A discussion of Anti-Depressant Dosage

I had an interesting discussion on Tuesday with my psychiatrist about my anti-depressant dosage, in which I explained how differently I feel on different anti-depressant doses. I initially decided to drop my dose from 30mg to 20mg because I had 3 days in January during which I forgot to take any tablets, and although I had horrific withdrawal symptoms – sweating, collapsing, breathlessness, lightheadedness – afterwards I felt incredible. I felt free. I felt like a lid had been lifted off my head. I felt happy, I felt sad, I felt anger. I felt emotions that I had been incapable of feeling since starting the 30mg citalopram dose. Continue reading

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Sitting with Loneliness

Things have to get worse before they get better. It’s just the way of things. These last few weeks after my lowest point was reached have definitely been getting better. But better doesn’t mean perfect. I couldn’t quite put my … Continue reading

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